9:05 AM: ideas but hmm

I've been thinking of personalizing the site's.. well, looks, in general.

It still feels more like Nil's Template than my own vision, and it's been bugging me.

That and i wanna make some tool pages. Thinking of making a tool where you can make CSV files for Rabbit & Steel with a visualizer.

(update @ 9:33 AM) im doing it

1:33 PM: Clear mind (impossible)

Or well, not just a clear mind, but my medication isn't helping anymore.

I skipped taking it today, and yet i feel the.. exact same.

How interesting.

11:02 AM: the embers in the fog

my head's been super foggy these days!

zero thoughts head empty

wish i could think!! my school assignments are piling up..

9:55 AM: i bloom

or that's what i wish i could say

my period of laziness is kicking my butt here

really wish i wasn't so useless for myself, alas..

...other note, rabbit & steel DLC was super fun.. and also, im stuck fasting and having to pray once a day even if im not fasting on weekdays

thanks mother (not really) (..prayer feels useless when my heart isn't in it)

8:27 PM: boredom of damnation

..or im just,, really tirrerdddddddddddddd

but they tend to correlate so its probably boredom sighhhh

9:20 am: when you realize

that you forgot to take your medication

(help my focus,,,, i cant find it,,,,,,,,,,)

10:41 PM: oh MY GOD I DIDNT POST ABOUT CHRISTMAS AGHHH

ALL GOOD!!!! uhh uhmm im making stuff still

comics are uhm

...in hell... for now...

11:34 AM: hi again

ookay, sooo.. like.. i've been trying to draw comics

but oh my god frost why are you impossible to draw

(madien and spell) her hair is so EVIL!!! it is MISCHEVIOUS and DIFFICULT to draw

...probably because i never learnt how to draw heads.

.....aughh. atleast royal arcanist is easy!! her hair's simple

6:08 PM: popping in again!!

music stufffs,,,

i've been really creative recently..

9:32 AM: wow, it's been awhile..

..i think my medication has found a new side effect.

i feel.. panicky. lost in the sea of my thoughts.

..desperately swimming for.. something. attention?

i don't know. but i need.. whatever that is.

11:13 AM: drawing, music, wow im doing alot

halloween art is planned btw ok thats all

9:17 PM: hi chat i am sick

all it took was one slightly longer than usual weekend

...i also drew again!! it's posted in the art museum.. (art stuff)

9:36 am: expression

..something i physically struggle with. expressing myself physically is just... impossible to me.

other than when i'm busy.. but then i'm paranoid..

..and i suppress a smile when i make one.

...why am i like this..

9:56 am:

everything just keeps repeating im so tired of this cycle

but soon, soon it will break

given enough time..

11:38 am: ..........

i feel an overwhelming amount of emotions

....sorrow suffocates my heart, a more miserable expression shown.

otherwise though i feel comfy somewhat

8:23 AM: fire drill, yesterday's work day, and more

we had a fire drill in the morning (not fun)

..right, yesterday's work

i pretty much unpacked, organized and shelved jeans for the 3 hours

yep

i'll probably get to mess with the website later.. but right now i know very little on how the admin backend works

as for other stuff, games:

tundraspace:

• added 2 worlds
• made.. something... i forgot

and a little side project of my own..

• added a light to sit with instead of only being able to sit with maya
• made lighting changes and improved energy regen and when seated, lowered energy cost when moving
• also added effects for low energy like slower movement at 60% and blurring and darkening at under 40%

7:28 AM: oops im late (results)

interview results:

time: 1 hour and ~20 minutes

tour: yes

comfort: hell yeah

job:

obtained

1:54 PM: !! INTERVIEW DAY !!

Thaaats RIGHTT I HAVE AN INTERVIEW

AND ITS FOR WEB DESIGN

all this HTML work... it's gonna pay off.......

..well, not literally pay off. i don't get money unless the employer wants to; this is co-op, after all.

but i'll have a whole lot of extra experience if i do get the job!

ahh, i feel... not nervous, but rather excited.

will try to remember to update if i get the job!

10:38 AM: slept in a little

slept in until around 8 somethin

i still feel a lil tired..

otherwise though i feel comfy somewhat

9:11 AM: i kinda just wanna get home

bored, tired, sleepy.... waa

unfortunate for me, atleast..

..oh right, uh, voxlblade..

my stone archer build went from like 350 dps to 1.3k.... oopsies

1:48 PM: voxlblade update day! on another note, i'm gOnNNAA LOSE MY MIND

STOP MAKING RANDOM SOUNDS ROLLING A DICE IS NOISY AND ANNOYING

Godddddd i hate it here why do i deal with half my classmates

....Right, voxlblade. Uhm.

My builds are not getting nerfs. They're all recieving buffs. Epic win.

12:10 PM: tired? yes. yes i am.

how the hell do you write a generalized cover letter

this thinking thing is tough......

12:52 PM: the dread is setting in again

...wow i forgot the weight of school on my mental state..

alas.. what am i to do?

10:57 AM: i'm back in THE BUILDING AGAIN RAGHHH

hi its school again

i'm grade 12 now! hell yeah!!

my schedule is funky. spare, math, lunch as usual then.. co-op for the afternoon!

truth be told, i was hoping for co-op in semester one. i'd much rather be cold than hot while working! whew..

anyway, opinions about this school year.. i seem fine with it. we'll see how well that goes.