updated whenever
it's cold in my english classroom.. it's quite annoying.
..we've been watching hamlet (4 hours long) but this teacher keeps skimming through it!!!
and he keeps informing us of what the next scene will include. it's annoying.
i've been drawing alot more though..!
and also music. on that topic, harmony's today. i'll be performing at it a little, so.. oh boy.
to start.. hmm. i've been a lot less talkative these past two weeks or so.
...whistles are annoying me more than ever. hurts my ears.
...............won't that incessant whistling stop while i write?
..anyway, ive been drawing alot more recently. and composing again. might post some of that soon.
HE won't stop whistling..! That bastard's driving me insane. I'm trying not to growl with hatred here...Meanwhile, school & home life aren't going as smoothly as i want them to.
...let alone today. i'm writing with my left hand stuck in my ear to suppress that fuckin bird of a student.
..That's all i have for this blog.
dreamt of the stars and space..
meanwhile, roblox is going to shit, as usual
a little sleepy
i wanna draw but i have NO ideas... weh...
my arm hurts... i think i slept on it
im also a bit extra tired. i slept at 3.. maybe 4 AM. regrets were had
im 18 since 3 days ago
i can evil post now................ /j
let me erase what seemed to be a friendship
that was revealed to be nothing
and rewrite my mind as if it never was
...
...
why did you do this to me?
it could have been said any other way
...this person who you have do the bidding.
...why.. did you have to call me nothing?
...my head hurts. everything hurts.
yet i cannot... do anything...
I've been thinking of personalizing the site's.. well, looks, in general.
It still feels more like Nil's Template than my own vision, and it's been bugging me.
That and i wanna make some tool pages. Thinking of making a tool where you can make CSV files for Rabbit & Steel with a visualizer.
(update @ 9:33 AM) im doing it
Or well, not just a clear mind, but my medication isn't helping anymore.
I skipped taking it today, and yet i feel the.. exact same.
How interesting.
my head's been super foggy these days!
zero thoughts head empty
wish i could think!! my school assignments are piling up..
or that's what i wish i could say
my period of laziness is kicking my butt here
really wish i wasn't so useless for myself, alas..
...other note, rabbit & steel DLC was super fun.. and also, im stuck fasting and having to pray once a day even if im not fasting on weekdays
thanks mother (not really) (..prayer feels useless when my heart isn't in it)
..or im just,, really tirrerdddddddddddddd
but they tend to correlate so its probably boredom sighhhh
that you forgot to take your medication
(help my focus,,,, i cant find it,,,,,,,,,,)
ALL GOOD!!!! uhh uhmm im making stuff still
comics are uhm
...in hell... for now...
ookay, sooo.. like.. i've been trying to draw comics
but oh my god frost why are you impossible to draw
(madien and spell) her hair is so EVIL!!! it is MISCHEVIOUS and DIFFICULT to draw
...probably because i never learnt how to draw heads.
.....aughh. atleast royal arcanist is easy!! her hair's simple
music stufffs,,,
i've been really creative recently..
..i think my medication has found a new side effect.
i feel.. panicky. lost in the sea of my thoughts.
..desperately swimming for.. something. attention?
i don't know. but i need.. whatever that is.
halloween art is planned btw ok thats all
all it took was one slightly longer than usual weekend
...i also drew again!! it's posted in the art museum.. (art stuff)
..something i physically struggle with. expressing myself physically is just... impossible to me.
other than when i'm busy.. but then i'm paranoid..
..and i suppress a smile when i make one.
...why am i like this..
everything just keeps repeating im so tired of this cycle
but soon, soon it will break
given enough time..
i feel an overwhelming amount of emotions
....sorrow suffocates my heart, a more miserable expression shown.
otherwise though i feel comfy somewhat
we had a fire drill in the morning (not fun)
..right, yesterday's work
i pretty much unpacked, organized and shelved jeans for the 3 hours
yep
i'll probably get to mess with the website later.. but right now i know very little on how the admin backend works
as for other stuff, games:
interview results:
time: 1 hour and ~20 minutes
tour: yes
comfort: hell yeah
job:
Thaaats RIGHTT I HAVE AN INTERVIEW
AND ITS FOR WEB DESIGN
all this HTML work... it's gonna pay off.......
..well, not literally pay off. i don't get money unless the employer wants to; this is co-op, after all.
but i'll have a whole lot of extra experience if i do get the job!
ahh, i feel... not nervous, but rather excited.
will try to remember to update if i get the job!
slept in until around 8 somethin
i still feel a lil tired..
otherwise though i feel comfy somewhat
bored, tired, sleepy.... waa
unfortunate for me, atleast..
..oh right, uh, voxlblade..
my stone archer build went from like 350 dps to 1.3k.... oopsies
STOP MAKING RANDOM SOUNDS ROLLING A DICE IS NOISY AND ANNOYING
Godddddd i hate it here why do i deal with half my classmates
....Right, voxlblade. Uhm.
My builds are not getting nerfs. They're all recieving buffs. Epic win.
how the hell do you write a generalized cover letter
this thinking thing is tough......
...wow i forgot the weight of school on my mental state..
alas.. what am i to do?
hi its school again
i'm grade 12 now! hell yeah!!
my schedule is funky. spare, math, lunch as usual then.. co-op for the afternoon!
truth be told, i was hoping for co-op in semester one. i'd much rather be cold than hot while working! whew..
anyway, opinions about this school year.. i seem fine with it. we'll see how well that goes.