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MAY

2025, May 30th

12:57 PM: calm

nothing terrible other than being tired

2025, May 29th

12:58 PM: wrath

impatience fills me as a sense of hatred grows for the people who dare disturb me.

frustration grows within the soul as things are repeated to me.

and yet...

...exhaustion fills my entire mental state.

2025, May 26th

10:28 AM: good mornings, and good nights

another yin and yang to be said

insomnia from the 24-25th night,

sleep-in from the 25-26th night.

2025, May 24th

1:21 PM: the dreams of null, the dreams of all

yet there is nothing and everything to dream about

hugs to want, alone time to be had. everything and nothing. yin and yang, if you wish to.

1:41 AM??: ...

isnt it abnormal to have not felt any form of physical contact like a hug from any friends?

i havent been given a hug by friends. ever...

2025, May 23rd

10:56 AM: oh fuck

math test that im mildly unprepared for

chat, it's so over

oh yeah canto 8 (part 2) beaten i like lin daiyu they're cool

2025, May 21st

1:46 PM: thanks god (/genuine)

i seem to do things on my own will. in this case, i have prayed on my own choice (now twice) this week.

i have felt significantly better much faster than i would typically so.

now, religion wise, i don't really.. associate with it directly. moreso i do what i want while following the basic principles. like not eating bacon.

speaking of, it's very unhealthy anyway.. and disasterously infectable. so.. it's a good thing, i suppose.

oh yeah canto 8 (part 2) tomorrow

2025, May 18th

8:07 PM: can i not be sick

every long weekend i swear to god i get sick

howwwwWWWWWWWWWW

2025, May 13th

8:09 PM: depth time (2)

i made golden week depth

yes im late. i will continue to be late

(the next idea is maid depth)

oh shoot i should go post it to bluesky actually brb

2025, May 12th

12:29 PM: mental exhaustion

apparently.. yesterday's frustrations have carried over to today. that's.. abnormal.

is my will finally falling apart? is the medication causing this..?

..ugghhh.. i can't focus anymore.

2025, May 11th

11:01 PM: i dont want to sleep.

also i'm drawing depth's secret from maiden & spell (again) (yes for golden week)

(andapparentlymissedmaiddaysothat'snext)

but anyway. i dont feel like sleeping.

2025, May 8th

8:10 PM: evil idea

okhipeoplewhoactuallyreadmyblog

what if i drew a small comic in the style of another piece of candy

mochi and treat (mochi asking treat to do the golden week thing)

7:16 AM: 15 minutes, tops.

i slept that much time

the dreamer, somn, being insomnia'd...

2025, May 5th

5:36 PM: bored, tbh

nothing to show but wants to be given attention..

2025, May 4th

9:35 PM: comfy..

seems everything is back to normal... atleast in terms of comfy.

2025, May 2nd

2:18 PM: AGHHHHHHHHHH

i walked two hours my legs burn